So I'm feeling a little bit of anxiety about my internship at the moment. Everything is still going really well, and my supervisor is still awesome. The thing is, there have been several people in the MSW program who have lost their field placements because of budget cuts, etc. at their agencies. So all of the field instructors were asked to consider taking on another intern. Julianne and I discussed it and decided that we would be open to the possibility of taking someone on if we really felt as though they would be a good fit. This was a few weeks ago, and we never heard anything back, so we figured nothing was going to happen.
Well, after work today I saw that Julianne had forwarded me an e-mail from a girl in the program who was wanting more information about Wellstone and possibly wanting to set up an interview. So it looks like we might be interviewing someone after all. The truth is, I have extremely mixed feelings about Julianne taking on another intern. I really like having a supervisor all to myself, and I worry that with another intern there we will be compared to one another. This is especially hard when you have people coming in with such different levels of experience. Looking at her resume, I saw that she was a psych major in undergrad and seems to have a lot of experience already in clinical type work, which is where I don't have a lot of experience. That's also the area that I feel most insecure about, and I worry that if we take on another intern who is very strong in that area, I am going to feel even less confident. I've spoken with other people in the program who are at agencies with more than one intern, and it seems like that is a common problem for them. My other fear is, what if we take someone on and I end up not liking her? I know that this is obviously something that happens in the real world, and I need to be prepared for it. However, this is my internship, and I feel like I deserve to have it be the kind of experience that I want. I'm certainly paying enough for it!
Anyway, feel free to tell me if I'm being ridiculous. I know that I should just relax and have faith that it will all work out. But you all know me, I have a tendency to worry! I'll keep you updated.
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